Digressive Ramblings

Hey there pretty lady, You are pretty amazing. You're good at what you do, you have a boyfriend that thinks you're a babe and the VP of your company likes you. Oh and you're out of bad debt and you almost own your car. You're making it! Your great, don't stress things will keep being good. You deserve it! Love, me

Wow that's heavy huh? Maybe it's heavy because I have a lot of hopes and dreams for the next 365 days and I don't know what I want to share... maybe I'll just be vauge New Location- I love my parents, but I can't be living there much longer Stability- a lot of decisions are being made the next few months that greatly impact my life, that needs to calm down Gainfully employed- I would like to keep my job (lots of layoffs right now around here) or find a better one I'm super serious about my weight loss now. I track what I eat, I work out so I want to lose weight. Is that so much to ask? Love: I'm in love with an amazing person. He's perfect for me. My hope/dream/goal is that I don't screw it up :)

I'm getting sick of these... but ya know I gotta finish... anyway here's a photo of me right now. Cool thing to note is that my sweater was my mom's. Like "her senior yr portrait she's rocking it" use to be my mom's. It's so freaking cool with the buttons, but it's so warm that it doesn't get a lot of action in So Cal.   It's a pretty awkward face because I'm at work and I didn't want someone to come by and be thinking I'm weird for taking a picture.  This picture also tells me I need to keep working on growing my hair... which means I won't be seeing Katie at the salon anytime soon....

Well my birthday is about 6 months away and everything I can think of that I want for my birthday I should have by then... well except my Audi TT convertible and judging my diet for today I won't be the size 8 I want to be, but that's my fault and my lack of willpower... so I guess for my birthday I want willpower or to magically lose about 20 pounds...

My Family- Christmas 2010 a rough left to right is Crespo family, my parents, Craig and Kristy, Eric/Cassie Dittman family then the single folk. I got my business cards- finally! I just love this dress... you can't tell but it's amazing on me... it just needs a little sleeve work to make it modest This was last Wednesday's schedule... yeah no break Okay I know it's lame, but we've been officially dating for almost a year... and unofficially for over a year... so we're in love and at a 50's dinner so we decided to be cute he's mine :) I have a great butt... and a messy room... but more importantly a great butt I don't have a picture of my house... but this is my second home Okay so these aren't the flowers I currently have... but they are similar the non-human love of my life... seriously he's so cute!

Dearest Future Michelle, You're funny. I know life is just starting to turn around right now, but guess what, you're right -- this is your year! You know how you pretty much hate your job and schedule and stuff- it's going to get better. And that silly young boy you're not sure about- it's a good bet and investment. The positive thinking worked. Just stay calm, clinge to your belief that this is your year and good things will happen. Also, the money issues will go away :)  Just try to not indulge in so much food would you? It would make 2011 easier, but no now you're gonna have to to go to the gym all year to fix what you did in 2010.  Keep smiling and trusting, you will do great this year. Things will start looking up! Michelle

Shy People. haha is that weird to say? I just find them interesting. Here's the thing- I'm not shy, at all. I will say hi to anyone and talk a ton and be the center of attention ALWAYS. I will not only do it, I will thrive in that space. So I do not understand people who are the opposite. They are so very interesting to me and so I'm completely fascinated by them. I just can't believe that there are people out there that don't want to be the center of attention. The funny thing about that is that my younger brother is one of the most shy people I know and I just don't understand it. I just don't get it so I'm fascinated by it. It's such a foreign thing to me.

So I haven't been here... YET but here's my dream. Antigua  And here is my favorite place that I have been to. Hawaii

Ugh I don't really want to highlight these, but here we go-maybe I'll be able to improve them if I tell you all them. I bite my cuticles I check facebook on my phone when I'm with large groups of people When I'm on the phone and not loving the conversation (and I'm not driving) I will start saying " uh huh" and will be playing games on my phone. I drag my feet when I walk

Today I've been moved by this picture . It is a deep insightful picture for so many reasons and has caused me to think some heavy thoughts. 1. Finally there is proof that humanity is inherently good. That might be an odd thing to say, but lately I've been thinking about it and my view of people in this world is dismal. Everyday I see selfish people who are rude and only care about themselves, And  I know some people might say, "Well, of course, Michelle- you live in LA." Don't worry it happened a lot in Utah too. And don't even get me started on the comments on articles. But, it seems like every time I lose hope something like this happens that restores my faith a bit. 2. Sometimes I think that this country needs a good revolution. Before you call the mental hospital, let me explain. I think that it brings out the worst in people, but it also brings out the best in people. We need more "best" people showing up. I think that sometimes we all get t...

Dear Walt Disney, Every day of my career I get at least one email shaming us because we're ruining your vision and that you would never do what we do today with your company. Would you please clarify if you would charge premium prices for premium experiences or not? Also, would you operate a business or a non-profit? Just curious. Love Michelle

So if you really want to know a ton about Leo's here's the super crazy long explanation .  Basically it says my good traits are:   Generous and warmhearted Creative and enthusiastic Broad-minded and expansive Faithful and loving                                                                                 And that my bad traits are:  Pompous and patronizing Bossy and interfering  Dogmatic and intolerant So yeah, with that being said I think we all know that I am very much a Leo. In fact, I have a co-worker that after working with me for 2 days ask...

So my mom pretty much refuses to take pictures and when she has family pictures done it takes years to get them to us... so to keep this along here's a few candid s. There's both from our trip to Hawaii. I miss it.... My Dad and I after finishing going down all the stairs on Diamond Head My Mom and I at the first beach we saw when we landed in Hawaii

I use to dance to any and everything with a beat. I was always dancing and moving, now not so much... I feel old. Anyway, there is always two songs that makes me want to move my feet: AND

I'm really bad at hobbies, but here's a spattering of what I've tried over the years: soccer* scrapbooking photography volleyball* track piano* (kinda...) french horn violin knitting* cross-stitch sewing quilting art cooking* blogging* aerobics sleeping**** reading* dancing* cosmotology writing Yeah I think that's enough... needless to say I do a lot of things... just not for a long time :) I've started the ones that I will still do if I have time...

Dear Ex, Thank you so much for dumping me. Goodness knows I was ignoring all the red flags and was set on making it work. It was the best decision you ever made for me, although I'm guessing it might be the worst decision of your life... since I see you've gone no where with it.  I, however, have the best life ever now and I'm so happy with who is in it. You were in my life to show me that it's okay to date a younger man and I'm grateful for that- but now I'm just grateful you're not in it anymore. Michelle

So I kinda covered this here , but I have a few more. Here is my list from facebook in no particular order: "Think about it. If you are single, after graduation there isn't one occasion where people celebrate you. Hallmark doesn't make a 'congratulations, you didn't marry the wrong guy' card. And where's the flatware for going on vacation alone?"~ Carrie SATC "If you can laugh long and hard after you trip people will just think you're drunk" ~Conan O'Brien Among those whom I like or admire, I can find no common denominator, but among those whom I love, I can: all of them make me laugh. W. H. Auden Men show their character in nothing more clearly than by what they think laughable. Johann Wolfgang Goethe "In order to have joy, you need to understand that, as a child of your Heavenly Father, you inherited divine traits and spiritual needs--and just like a fish needs water, you need the gospel and the companion...

What am I not craving right now is the question? My lunch was very unsatisfying. In fact, As I was eating it I was getting nausea because I was very sick of it and didn't like the consistency anymore. It was Sweet Potato Bisque from Trader Joe's, and I think it was because I didn't have any rolls/ crackers to eat it with because I forgot my pretzel roll at home, but diet goals and budget goals prevented me from purchasing/ eating anything else. SIGH so in typical Michelle fashion here's pictures of what I'm craving: Pretzel Roll... so yum Add texture to my liquid lunch ANY ONE of these... sigh Trader Joe's= diet friendly, right? I ALWAYS crave this. Even when I'm eating it... but I usually get Animal or Protein Style... I just realized that this might not mean food... like you can crave things beside food... well I'm still hungry and I'm PMS-ing so leave me alone :) today it's craving food. P.S. I, Michelle, just man...

I like to call this my second home... LOVE that it's the carousel, London Tower and a castle all in one picture.

So about a month ago I said to myself "this musing would be an awesome blog post for when I get to tickle my fancy." (that sounds so gross!) "Self, you should write it down so you remember. Nah, I don't need to." Well here I am not remembering... oh well. Today we will talk about life. Life is funny isn't it?   It changes a lot. It's weird. I know that may sound dumb but here's what my life looked like about a year ago (brought to you by Paint)   Now my life is this: I'm not complaining really, I'm kinda excited to find out what the Question Mark will be, but let me tell you the other plan was a lot easier to wrap my head around and plan my life around, because it was all planned out and it didn't depend on anyone else. I think that's what is crazy... other people , be it bosses or boyfriends or jerks who work at a certain Studio, co-workers or family... when my life depends on them more... it's scary.