Digressive Ramblings

So Chad is off in the woods, and has been for the past 24 so days. Can I explain just how over it I am? I don't like that I'm making all the final decisions without his input for the wedding. I don't like that he was not here to cuddle me when I was puking everything I ate for 24 hours. I don't like that he's not here to stop me from meddling in other people's lives. I don't like that when I have a nightmare I can't call him and have him talk me back to sleep. I don't like that when I can't sleep he isn't around to talk me to sleep. I don't like not having him with me when I go out to dinner, or a movie, or a friend's house. I don't like that I never hear from him.  I don't like that he's not around to be with me, cuddle me, hug me, laugh with me, talk with me. UGH It is a very good thing he comes home this weekend because I'm just so over him being gone. OKAY WHINING OVER. In 2 weeks exactly I will be exiting...

The quick answer is I don't know. I just got a bit of blogging fatigue I think. Here's a quick rundown of my life in the last little bit: ~Photographer DRAMA ~Horrible co-worker saying bad things about me ~Found a place to live in New York... but without Batman :( ~Chad is away at camp... and I miss him a ton ~Less than a month till my wedding! ~lost some weight ~got my hair all dyed for the wedding and it looks AMAZING (that's what the picture is of) ~my dress is looking like a dress now :) ~July's Saturdays: drop Chad off at camp, bridal shower, bridal shower/ cover band, baby shower/ pick Chad up, Wedding stuff! ~NOTHING new in terms of jobs... so annoyed ~Sleeping has been lame... as in I can't do it ~Massage tonight... yes!

So in November, before Chad and I ever talked about getting married (but I might have been thinking about it) a friend of his approached him and asked if he would be the Waterfront Director at a Boy Scout Camp this summer. So he said yes thinking it was his last summer to do something like this. So now he's off in the wood of Utah this week for training. Which I am hating. Why? Because he's off in the woods without cell phone service for the entire week and so I have become that girl that is bummed and cried, yes cried, at the airport this morning. So lame. Chad keeps trying to tell me this is just practice for when he's at the camp and will be gone for a month without cell phone service. I don't even want to think about that. It makes me so depressed... the only nice thing is it's the month before the wedding so I can just throw my all into the final prep for that and pack and stuff... In order to stay busy this week I've set up a bunch of appointments a...

So Chad got into Columbia... and only Columbia so come end of August we will both be living in New York (hopefully the city and not a suburb...) I'm excited/nervous/scared/happy/proud/stressed/in awe/ every other emotion you could possibly feel. But today it all finally felt so real. I don't know why it was today... I don't know why it didn't happen when trying on dresses or tasting cake or any of the wedding planning. What made it real was talking to Chad's sister and saying "we". WE are moving to New York, WE are apartment hunting, WE aren't going to be around for Christmas, Halloween, Thanksgiving etc. WE are going to be in a huge city with a million people, but it's going to be just us 2 as we start building OUR life together. WOW. I'm excited.

My Family- Christmas 2010 a rough left to right is Crespo family, my parents, Craig and Kristy, Eric/Cassie Dittman family then the single folk. I got my business cards- finally! I just love this dress... you can't tell but it's amazing on me... it just needs a little sleeve work to make it modest This was last Wednesday's schedule... yeah no break Okay I know it's lame, but we've been officially dating for almost a year... and unofficially for over a year... so we're in love and at a 50's dinner so we decided to be cute he's mine :) I have a great butt... and a messy room... but more importantly a great butt I don't have a picture of my house... but this is my second home Okay so these aren't the flowers I currently have... but they are similar the non-human love of my life... seriously he's so cute!

Well this is just too easy... I saw this just today... This may or may not be a screenshot since this is a DisneyPhotoPass pic...  and here it is in Black and White... I think it's stunning. And here it is with a Christmas border We took photo pass pics by the tree too.. And with a Feliz Navidad border... because why not! Sorry for being that girl here... I just like it and it's a picture that makes me happy In other random news... I have become an HTML code queen... next thing you know I'll be designing my own blogs and not using templates... hahahaha it's more I'm just really proud of myself and what I'm doing on my work website in terms of HTML coding.

  Dear Chad Crush, Hi, I just wanted to say that I think you're really cute! Whenever I see you my heart skips a beat. I like that you always make me laugh, even when I'm grumpy and don't want to laugh. Talking to you, even if its about nothing, is the highlight of my day. I love that you don't like mushrooms and will order vegetarian food just so we can share. All romantic songs make me think of you. You always make me smile. Love, Michelle Your Secret Admirer And in an odd twist of fate- my friend shared this site with me today... so cute! http://www.letterstocrushes.com/

So I've decided to do my week in pictures.... most won't be real because they haven't happened yet- but my goal is to fully document it so that I have real pictures to share :) Monday: So confession... this isn't the LA visitor center that I went to, but it looks a lot like it! It was fun to see the new center and all the interactive elements. I kinda dork out about that stuff now. This is Chad being more interested in ESPN than me while we were at The Counter for dinner, but that's okay because I'm a mess when I eat there so I was able to wipe my face off while he was distracted :) Tuesday: To celebrate Brittani's birthday... I'm thinking about trying something new today... and yes, that does excite me! Wednesday: Pedicures with the girls! and then maybe we're seeing Scott Pilgrim Thursday and on: Thursday evening Chad and I are hitting the road (this stock photo is great because in a very general sense it looks like the two of us) and are he...

It was too long to post on facebook so here's all my B's that I miss in an extended status type of way, in no particular order: Best Friend Michele- she is just so great that I love being around her. I feel like she'll NEVER judge/ be disapointed in me... even when she should. She'll always be there for me and I love her to pieces. Best Friend Erica- Which is stupid because she lives like 10 minutes away, but I miss talking to her everyday, hopping into bed with her when something exciting happens, living with her, seeing her.... stupid married life. Best Friend Kay- We email, but face to face or phone hasn't happened in so long that it makes my heart hurt a bit. And she's having a rough time and I hate that! Bed- I woke up at 3:30EST, drove to JFK, hopped on a flight, attempted to sleep for 6 hours and drove to work. Right now nothing sounds better than bed. Brittany Francis- I seriously can't get enough of this girl- she makes me smile and if I w...