Digressive Ramblings

Here's the essay I had to write for a job I was offered but turned down for my current job. It made sense- it was less pay and worse hours (overnight shift and graveyard) but sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I took this one instead... Anyway the question (in case you don't pick it up by the intro sentence) was what are you most proud of and why? As I have contemplated what I'm most proud of, it was quite difficult to pinpoint one singular thing. I just could not decide. Then finally it dawned on me, I'm most proud of me! I have done many things with my life that I'm proud of. I have moved across the country on a whim, based on a promising internship, knowing no one, something I had never done before. I have moved, but it was always with someone else. I always had a safety net to my adventures, but this time I didn't know a soul. During that internship I learned a lot about myself that I'm proud of. I learned how to be independent, that it...

THE RULES: 1. Post these rules 2. Post 11 random things about yourself 3. Answer the questions provided by the one who tagged you 4. Create 11 new questions for the people you tag 5. Tag 11 people 11 Random Things About Me! 1.I get really upset if I get all dolled up for something and I don't think enough people have seen me. 2. I actually have pretty bad performance anxiety. RIGHT before I have to give a talk/ make a presentation/ start an interview (as interviewer or interviewee)/ star in a roadshow(once)/ meet with a large group of people I get so insanely nervous and my heart pounds and my ears turn HOT and I am frozen in terror. You would NEVER know it once I get started though.  3. I will never be the sweet perfect mormon housewife. I am slowly coming to terms with that being okay 4. I have no idea who I want to be President right now, but I know who I definitely DON'T want 5. I HATE mushrooms, like HATE. I think they are the grossest things ever. 6. I wish ...

I'm getting sick of these... but ya know I gotta finish... anyway here's a photo of me right now. Cool thing to note is that my sweater was my mom's. Like "her senior yr portrait she's rocking it" use to be my mom's. It's so freaking cool with the buttons, but it's so warm that it doesn't get a lot of action in So Cal.   It's a pretty awkward face because I'm at work and I didn't want someone to come by and be thinking I'm weird for taking a picture.  This picture also tells me I need to keep working on growing my hair... which means I won't be seeing Katie at the salon anytime soon....

Okay so my camera adds weird black dots, but here ya go... how I look right this second through the lens of an iPhone. I know it says see your teeth, but I'm pretty sure they have food in them.Oh and you better believe that's a Ralph's bag full of Tim Tams behind me... I'm so ready to TIM TAM SLAM! If you really want to see them/ see how amazing I looked (and tell me that too haha) at Michele Monteforte (now Bruggerman)'s wedding this weekend I have added another picture for your enjoyment.

So this was taken about 2 weeks ago... It's from the Halloween party I went to. I was once again being silly and my costume came from my closet basically. The shirt (which I LOVE and WILL wear again) is the only thing I'm wearing I didn't already own. I was trying to take a picture of me here at work but I remembered that my hair looks bad, I'm not wearing make up, the lighting is bad and my cube is gray and depressing behind me. I even tried messing around in CS5 but yeah it wasn't working out... you'll have to deal with 2 weeks old... stolen from facebook :)

Hi, my name is Michelle. I'm really bad at tooting my own horn. I feel like my life can be best broken down into stereotypes that defined the sections of my life (from youth to now): drama-queen, popular, outcast, mean girl, tomboy, smarty-pants, prep, party girl, flirt, loner, new girl, optimist and now I'm just working on being Michelle- a combination of all the above. I've spent about half my life on the East Coast and half my life on the West. The result? I'm too uptight for California and I'm too laid back for New York :) I like colors, people, dancing, proving people wrong, rolling my eyes and laughing. I dis-like ignorant people, water in my face, being told I can't have/do something and being a vegetarian that hates mushrooms. My favorite quote comes from a President that I still haven't decided how I feel about; Ronald Reagan. "I know in my heart that man is good. That what is right will always eventually triumph. And there's purpo...

masochistic- Noun. gratification gained from pain, deprivation, degradation, etc., inflicted or imposed on oneself, either as a result of one's own actions or the actions of others, esp. the tendency to seek this form of gratification. "The sadistic person is as dependent on the submissive person as the latter is on the former; neither can live without the other. The difference is only that the sadistic person commands, exploits, hurts, humiliates, and that the masochistic person is commanded, exploited, hurt, humiliated. This is a considerable difference in a realistic sense; in a deeper emotional sense, the difference is not so great as that which they both have in common: fusion without integrity." Yeah... The picture is really cool though- it's called Cirque De Masochistic

Dear Michelle, Please stop thinking, analyzing, worrying, stressing and all other negative action verbs about your life. You need to be positive and focus on what's good and enjoy what's happening now. It is okay to live in the moment and appreciate what you have now- things will always work out and it will always be what's best for you. Enjoy what is going great right now and don't worry about the future because 1. it doesn't need to be planned out and follow a schedule 2. you don't know what life holds and 3. worry lines aren't pretty. Love Your logical side