Digressive Ramblings

Hey there pretty lady, You are pretty amazing. You're good at what you do, you have a boyfriend that thinks you're a babe and the VP of your company likes you. Oh and you're out of bad debt and you almost own your car. You're making it! Your great, don't stress things will keep being good. You deserve it! Love, me

Wow that's heavy huh? Maybe it's heavy because I have a lot of hopes and dreams for the next 365 days and I don't know what I want to share... maybe I'll just be vauge New Location- I love my parents, but I can't be living there much longer Stability- a lot of decisions are being made the next few months that greatly impact my life, that needs to calm down Gainfully employed- I would like to keep my job (lots of layoffs right now around here) or find a better one I'm super serious about my weight loss now. I track what I eat, I work out so I want to lose weight. Is that so much to ask? Love: I'm in love with an amazing person. He's perfect for me. My hope/dream/goal is that I don't screw it up :)

I'm getting sick of these... but ya know I gotta finish... anyway here's a photo of me right now. Cool thing to note is that my sweater was my mom's. Like "her senior yr portrait she's rocking it" use to be my mom's. It's so freaking cool with the buttons, but it's so warm that it doesn't get a lot of action in So Cal.   It's a pretty awkward face because I'm at work and I didn't want someone to come by and be thinking I'm weird for taking a picture.  This picture also tells me I need to keep working on growing my hair... which means I won't be seeing Katie at the salon anytime soon....

Well my birthday is about 6 months away and everything I can think of that I want for my birthday I should have by then... well except my Audi TT convertible and judging my diet for today I won't be the size 8 I want to be, but that's my fault and my lack of willpower... so I guess for my birthday I want willpower or to magically lose about 20 pounds...

My Family- Christmas 2010 a rough left to right is Crespo family, my parents, Craig and Kristy, Eric/Cassie Dittman family then the single folk. I got my business cards- finally! I just love this dress... you can't tell but it's amazing on me... it just needs a little sleeve work to make it modest This was last Wednesday's schedule... yeah no break Okay I know it's lame, but we've been officially dating for almost a year... and unofficially for over a year... so we're in love and at a 50's dinner so we decided to be cute he's mine :) I have a great butt... and a messy room... but more importantly a great butt I don't have a picture of my house... but this is my second home Okay so these aren't the flowers I currently have... but they are similar the non-human love of my life... seriously he's so cute!

Dearest Future Michelle, You're funny. I know life is just starting to turn around right now, but guess what, you're right -- this is your year! You know how you pretty much hate your job and schedule and stuff- it's going to get better. And that silly young boy you're not sure about- it's a good bet and investment. The positive thinking worked. Just stay calm, clinge to your belief that this is your year and good things will happen. Also, the money issues will go away :)  Just try to not indulge in so much food would you? It would make 2011 easier, but no now you're gonna have to to go to the gym all year to fix what you did in 2010.  Keep smiling and trusting, you will do great this year. Things will start looking up! Michelle

I LOVE listening to music. I am almost always listening to music. It's on when I'm in the car and it's on when I'm working. I can't even tell you how many conversations I've missed because someone comes and stands behind me at my desk  (or use to because I've graduated to a front facing desk) and I don't know because I have headphones in and I'm rocking out. That being said, music shapes most of my memories and I've come to find out that it shapes my emotions too much.  Today while at work I was getting very sad and depressed and I realized it's because of this song: I was so sad. Did I mention that I'm currently madly in love with someone, and he loves me back. In fact he told me that he would get his best friend and disappear off the face of the earth and live in the woods if I dumped him- that's how much he loves me. But this song seriously makes me think that he dumped me. (BMF- I still think about Hawaii...) I guess ...

Shy People. haha is that weird to say? I just find them interesting. Here's the thing- I'm not shy, at all. I will say hi to anyone and talk a ton and be the center of attention ALWAYS. I will not only do it, I will thrive in that space. So I do not understand people who are the opposite. They are so very interesting to me and so I'm completely fascinated by them. I just can't believe that there are people out there that don't want to be the center of attention. The funny thing about that is that my younger brother is one of the most shy people I know and I just don't understand it. I just don't get it so I'm fascinated by it. It's such a foreign thing to me.

So I haven't been here... YET but here's my dream. Antigua  And here is my favorite place that I have been to. Hawaii

Ugh I don't really want to highlight these, but here we go-maybe I'll be able to improve them if I tell you all them. I bite my cuticles I check facebook on my phone when I'm with large groups of people When I'm on the phone and not loving the conversation (and I'm not driving) I will start saying " uh huh" and will be playing games on my phone. I drag my feet when I walk

Today I've been moved by this picture . It is a deep insightful picture for so many reasons and has caused me to think some heavy thoughts. 1. Finally there is proof that humanity is inherently good. That might be an odd thing to say, but lately I've been thinking about it and my view of people in this world is dismal. Everyday I see selfish people who are rude and only care about themselves, And  I know some people might say, "Well, of course, Michelle- you live in LA." Don't worry it happened a lot in Utah too. And don't even get me started on the comments on articles. But, it seems like every time I lose hope something like this happens that restores my faith a bit. 2. Sometimes I think that this country needs a good revolution. Before you call the mental hospital, let me explain. I think that it brings out the worst in people, but it also brings out the best in people. We need more "best" people showing up. I think that sometimes we all get t...

Dear Walt Disney, Every day of my career I get at least one email shaming us because we're ruining your vision and that you would never do what we do today with your company. Would you please clarify if you would charge premium prices for premium experiences or not? Also, would you operate a business or a non-profit? Just curious. Love Michelle