Digressive Ramblings

I considered posting something about this subject earlier when it was first announced at general conference but I found so many other posts that expressed my feelings much more eloquently than I ever could. I thought that would suffice, but as I stand here on the subway trying to swallow the tears that just want to come, while I read President Monson's announcement, I realize I need to share. Do I know if this revelation had come a decade before if I would serve? No. I don't know if that would have been my path, but my hear breaks a bit that I never got the chance to decide. At 19 I was full of life and a sincere desire to understand the gospel. It's not that I lack that desire now, but some of my life experiences have ruined my child like faith a bit. I keep thinking what if. What if I went on a mission at 19? I know one of the worst things that ever happened to me would not be part of my past because I never would have been in Florida. On that note though, if I

Tonight was a first for me! I am about 95% sure I saw a dead body tonight. Here's the story... I was walking to a grocery store today, the one that gives you 10% off on Wednesday nights and I passed a parked car. What was odd about this was that there was a lady in the passenger seat and she looked like she was passed out, but the car door was open. There was a bit of commotion around the car, but I didn't pay it much attention because I was on 125th, and if you have been to NYC you'll know that 125th is quite the commotion of a street. Lots of people, cars, loud noises, people milling around etc. So it didn't really register as anything to me. THEN after I passed the car I started thinking about the woman and how remarkably still she was. I was very impressed that she could sleep so soundly with the noise of the street, then I started to wonder if she was okay. I briefly considered calling 911 and having the police check on her, but there were a lot of people wal

THE RULES: 1. Post these rules 2. Post 11 random things about yourself 3. Answer the questions provided by the one who tagged you 4. Create 11 new questions for the people you tag 5. Tag 11 people 11 Random Things About Me! 1.I get really upset if I get all dolled up for something and I don't think enough people have seen me. 2. I actually have pretty bad performance anxiety. RIGHT before I have to give a talk/ make a presentation/ start an interview (as interviewer or interviewee)/ star in a roadshow(once)/ meet with a large group of people I get so insanely nervous and my heart pounds and my ears turn HOT and I am frozen in terror. You would NEVER know it once I get started though.  3. I will never be the sweet perfect mormon housewife. I am slowly coming to terms with that being okay 4. I have no idea who I want to be President right now, but I know who I definitely DON'T want 5. I HATE mushrooms, like HATE. I think they are the grossest things ever. 6. I wish

Man oh man have women been in the press lately. And of course I have opinions. I don't know why this blog has turned into my political sounding board, but it has. Sorry if you're apathetic. WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE WORLD TODAY? I don't swear, so my blog doesn't swear... I would never think I was a die hard feminist. Someday, I want to have kids and be a stay at home mom. I love that idea.  However, I don't think what I want is right for everyone and that everyone else should want that too. I think women should have just as much power as men when it comes to making their own decisions. I will tell you that the stay at home mom thing is COMPLETELY my decision. If I wanted to work full time, get a graduate degree, do anything I want, I know Chad would support me 100%. I am not oppressed. I made this decision.  I think everyone has the right to decide. I think that is what is upsetting me the most. I feel like there has been a lot of craziness happenin

I really want to emphasis that this is 100% my opinion and I do not represent anyone at all when I make this opinion, but as a student of history and an outspoken feminist Mormon I thought I would compile my opinion on the matter... do what you want with it. It seems there has been a lot to do with the embarrassing history of black members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (LDS for short). A lot of it has been kicked up by The Washington Post article about this topic. A lot of people were up in arms about what Bro. Bott said in this article. I'm not going to address his thoughts, I'm sure it's been addressed elsewhere. I'm going to address the sentiment of the time and perhaps put the whole controversy in context. In 1830 the LDS church was established in upstate New York. In1804 all the Northern states (states north of the Mason-Dixon line) had passed laws to abolish slavery gradually. Congress in 1807 banned the international slave trade. Slaver

This will be a political RANT, feel free to ignore if you don't care what I think and what makes me angry, politics wise.  I hate the primaires this year. Like more than any other year. It has been so annoying and here's why: I have a bunch of facebook friends that are Ron Paul disciples. I say disciples because they aren't supporters. They are people who believe he is the savior of the American government. They truly believe that the US is right at the point of crumbling a la ancient greek and roman governments and that Ron Paul is going to be able to prevent that if he's president. They don't believe he can't win... which brings me to my next point. A lot of people have been saying this year that electability doesn't matter. I don't know where they get that idea. If they all think Obama is the worst president ever (more on that) then their goal should be to present a candidate that the general population would feel good about, one that would be a

I don't know if I'm okay with it. It was NOT mutual. And I don't think Pinterest is fully rejecting me either. It's a shaky break at best. The other day I wanted to post something on Pinterest and I can't get into my account. :( I have sent 2 emails to them and have not heard back. It's quite devastating. So right now, I'm going to use my blog as my Pinterest till I get it back: I think I could make these.... be awesome when I someday have a baby... unless it takes after it's Dad and is exceptionally hairy out of the womb I just like this quote. Infographic as a Holiday Card... such a cute idea Visiting Morocco is on my bucket list Himalayan Trek- yes please Stay in a castle! I want this bag. I'm obsessed with Maldives- Anantara Dhigu I still have Pinterest access on my phone, which is why I don't think it's completely over yet... I really do hope they take me back. It's a bit of an obsession, and I