Tuesday, August 31, 2010

So excited

So I've decided to do my week in pictures.... most won't be real because they haven't happened yet- but my goal is to fully document it so that I have real pictures to share :)
Monday:So confession... this isn't the LA visitor center that I went to, but it looks a lot like it! It was fun to see the new center and all the interactive elements. I kinda dork out about that stuff now.
This is Chad being more interested in ESPN than me while we were at The Counter for dinner, but that's okay because I'm a mess when I eat there so I was able to wipe my face off while he was distracted :)
Tuesday:To celebrate Brittani's birthday... I'm thinking about trying something new today... and yes, that does excite me!
Wednesday:Pedicures with the girls! and then maybe we're seeing Scott Pilgrim
Thursday and on:Thursday evening Chad and I are hitting the road (this stock photo is great because in a very general sense it looks like the two of us) and are heading to NorCal for the long weekend. Here's a few things I want to see.... that Chad isn't completely aware of yet :)
I want to walk across the bridge.... no idea why but I do...
So Full House... I kinda wanna see this place... but I won't die if I don't
This will be easy... Berkeley is the reason for the trip
It's classic... I'm sure we will!
Who doesn't want to visit a famous jail??

I'm sure we'll be seeing a lot more and like I said... I plan on actually taking pictures so maybe I won't have to google memories now :)

OH and to make sure I can do all my walking and not ruin my pedicure; look what I just bought!
I am slowly getting a bit granola... climbing shoes and harness... chacos... the next thing you know I'll be buying a performance fleece... again... much to the chagrin of Erica.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

I'm so sad

that whoever requested this cake is married...


because that is just so very awesome. I'm glad they found each other.

Definition


masochistic- Noun.

gratification gained from pain, deprivation, degradation, etc., inflicted or imposed on oneself, either as a result of one's own actions or the actions of others, esp. the tendency to seek this form of gratification.

"The sadistic person is as dependent on the submissive person as the latter is on the former; neither can live without the other. The difference is only that the sadistic person commands, exploits, hurts, humiliates, and that the masochistic person is commanded, exploited, hurt, humiliated. This is a considerable difference in a realistic sense; in a deeper emotional sense, the difference is not so great as that which they both have in common: fusion without integrity."

Yeah...

The picture is really cool though- it's called Cirque De Masochistic

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Dear Michelle

Dear Michelle,

Please stop thinking, analyzing, worrying, stressing and all other negative action verbs about your life. You need to be positive and focus on what's good and enjoy what's happening now. It is okay to live in the moment and appreciate what you have now- things will always work out and it will always be what's best for you. Enjoy what is going great right now and don't worry about the future because 1. it doesn't need to be planned out and follow a schedule 2. you don't know what life holds and 3. worry lines aren't pretty.

Love

Your logical side

Friday, August 13, 2010

Introspective


“Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.” -The Wonder Years


Note to Self: Watch more The Wonder Years... seriously use to love that show.

So, I use to be a lot more hyper... like crazy hyper. Like actually bouncing off the walls and crazy fun. Sometimes I still get that way... but I've mellowed out a lot lately. I use to think that I've lost a bit of myself... the whole selling out and chaining my soul to corporate America (great imagery for me here) killing my youth and fun... but I realized it's more growing up then it is selling out.

~ The trick is growing up without growing old.

It's not like I'm not fun... I'm just more steady. For example, last night I went to watch the meteor show... 3 years ago I wouldn't have been able to lay still there for more than like 2 minutes without talking and moving... but last night I'm pretty certain I could have just stayed there for hours just laying there, chatting occasionally, pointing out meteors and just being in the moment.

On my drive home last night (when I didn't have the radio playing- another sign) I was thinking about it and wondering if I'm fun. I wonder if normal people wonder that, anyway, I was thinking about that and if I'm fun and who I am now and I realized it's not that I'm not fun anymore... it's just that with life I roll with the punches, I learn from them and I've grown up and matured because of them. It's okay that I'm not the crazy girl anymore... that I'm who I should be. I'm still fun, but I can enjoy the things that mile a minute Michelle use to miss.

~ If growing up is the process of creating ideas and dreams about what life should be, then maturity is letting go again. ~

I've grown up enough to know that sometimes plans change, but it's always for the better; that sometimes the best thing to do is leap into the unknown hoping you made the right choice; that you can find joy and fun in the simple moments not just the elaborate ones; that sometimes you need to let go to truly move on and that joy comes from within.

~ The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

A good day

These things are making me happy today:

Some Guy making fun of Twilight

Meteor Showers like Whoa!

A Spelling Bee for Cheaters

Girls Night! Dinner is planned as well...

I'm going to have a good weekend :) Now if only I didn't have to work... I need to refocus myself and work on marrying wealthy again... I wasn't made to work long hours

oh and a last minute addition:
GENIUS

Monday, August 9, 2010

Missing the "B"s

It was too long to post on facebook so here's all my B's that I miss in an extended status type of way, in no particular order:

Best Friend Michele- she is just so great that I love being around her. I feel like she'll NEVER judge/ be disapointed in me... even when she should. She'll always be there for me and I love her to pieces.

Best Friend Erica- Which is stupid because she lives like 10 minutes away, but I miss talking to her everyday, hopping into bed with her when something exciting happens, living with her, seeing her.... stupid married life.

Best Friend Kay- We email, but face to face or phone hasn't happened in so long that it makes my heart hurt a bit. And she's having a rough time and I hate that!

Bed- I woke up at 3:30EST, drove to JFK, hopped on a flight, attempted to sleep for 6 hours and drove to work. Right now nothing sounds better than bed.

Brittany Francis- I seriously can't get enough of this girl- she makes me smile and if I were a boy I'd buy a ring right now and hit a knee. That's how much I love her! She just did EFY without me and I was sad all week that I wasn't there to run between rooms with her! But she did send me fudge... seriously she's so great.

Being an EFY counselor- I know we all must grow up and "leave behind childish things" and that it's not what I was suppose to do this summer- and I understand why that is now, but that doesn't mean that I can't miss it and pine for the days of little sleep, crazy teenagers and total joy.

Boy, A- I hate being that girl with updates and posts and whatnot about my boyfriend, but he's great and I like him lots and I miss him. He's off being a MAN climbing Mt. Whitney with his friends and has little service and no phone charger so I don't get a lot of chat time with him. This may be the longest I've ever had to go not talking to him since we exchanged numbers back in December AND the first time I turned on my phone after a flight and not had a message/text from him, SO I miss him... okay done, I promise. I even miss that stupid creeper 'stache showed to your left... that's serious miss- look at that thing... haha

Behrmann, Hayley- We've been friends forever and I was nearby, but didn't get to see her- good thing she's going to get a visit in November that will be full of me!

Brian Bahr- Double "B"s. I'm president of his fan club... (need to work on the site- one day when I'm bored I'm making a creepy "Brian spotted blog that is basically his facebook) he's in NYC and is another that gets a November visit!

Bagels- Okay so this is pathetic but seriously, have you had a bagel on the east coast? They're so much better than the pretend piece of bread with a whole in it that is a "bagel" on the West Coast. The West Coast has many great things; toll free highways, warmth year round and vegan restaurants all jump to mind, but seriously they just can't do bagels.

Beach- I just never think I get enough Beach time, even though this summer I'd say I'm averaging once every 2 weeks which isn't too bad... but I NEED more beach in my life. I just love it. Could be why part of me really does consider the idea of packing it all up and moving to Hawaii with Brittany- I'd get a lot of my B's in my life!

Bmegan- just because she put that and it made me laugh so hard. In all serious I do love the time I spend with her and the Parrys and wish it was more frequent.

Blaze- To keep with my "B" theme I needed to come up with a Pixie reference, but I miss working on Pixie Hollow. Don't get me wrong I love my new job and new responsibilities and I'm happy and I don't miss a few things (facebook and youtube patrolling= blah!), but there is something about the Hollow that was just so fun to work with, even when the job wasn't a blast. Sometimes I just miss being Pixie Perfect and kicking it with my Pixie Production team!

That may be all my "B"s that I'm missing right now that comes to mind... but that doesn't mean I don't miss more people, but I can't think of any more "B"s and I just can't break my theme.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

So not original

But seriously I love this poem (I know I'm not the only person who does):
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years

Finds and shall find me unafraid
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Marianne Williamson

That's what's keeping me going today.

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