Digressive Ramblings

So our branch in church does this thing where there is an RS newsletter. It's so we feel more connected since there are many of us that live in a city by ourselves. I never really wanted to contribute to them, I don't know why, but since I visit teach the woman who is in charge of the newsletter when she asked me to write something I couldn't really say no. She asked me to write on the topic of what I am truly grateful for. While writing it I thought this would be a good thing to post on my blog since I haven't updated it in forever. So here it is! What I am truly grateful for:  One of the biggest struggles I have is that I suffer from depression; both seasonal and, at times, a mildly crippling case of just general depression. It can get to be very overwhelming for me and leads me to retreat from life sometimes. So one thing I am truly thankful for is the friendships I have made with my family members and with friends I have made all around the world. The hardest...

Hello friends, Something has been weighing on my mind quite a bit and I thought maybe just writing it out would help. Since this is a personal thought, it’s on my blog, not the one Chad and I have.  I am going to start out this post by saying that any rude comments will be deleted . I write this here because I need advice, if you have any. I am not writing this to get others involved and wish no ill will to the offenders, but I’ve been upset for too long and I carry it around too much and it consumes me. I don’t want it to consume me anymore, but I don’t know how to stop it. I am having a hard time forgiving two people in my life right now and I don’t know how to get over the hump. Because I don’t want to offend or drag anyone into my bias you’re only going to get basic fact: Friend 1- said something very hurtful to me, which really struck a cord because it was hypocritical and cutting. There was very little base to it besides the gossip of others....

Today I am kicking everyone's butt. I  woke up this morning to an email that made me mad and made me frustrated that a lot of people seem to like to walk all over me and not worry about it. So today, I'm making things happen. Vendors are getting words, friends are getting words, deadbeats are getting words. And I'm standing up for myself. I'm done with toxic friendships in my life. Why should I put myself out for other people and try to keep a friendship there when they don't feel the need to work on said friendship. So what if that means I will be down 2 "best friends"? How best could they possibly be if they don't know anything going on in my life or even care to attempt to talk to me occasionally. I'm "friend" detoxing... I have enough fabulous people in my life I don't need them too. PLUS that just means less Christmas and Birthday presents for me to buy. Not to mention a wedding I don't have to attend now. Not too excepti...

I believe everything happens for a reason. I also believe that people are brought into your life for a reason- to help you grow in one way or another. Whenever I reflect on my life what I remember most about times in my life are the people I met and bonded with... I've been blessed with a happy disposition and the ability to make friends pretty easy and because of that I have an awesome bouquet of friends who live ALL over the country (and world...) now and they all have taught me something.... It's like each period of my life (usually broken down into where I live) has that friend that has impacted my life so much... California (round 1) - Danica... we were the coolest set of best friends Atherwood has ever seen! New Jersey - Michele and Nina... my life in New Jersey didn't seem like it was in order and happy until these 2 girls were my besties! It's when I finally came to love New Jersey Utah freshman yr - Bethie... randomly became roomies... we both thought the ...