Digressive Ramblings

which you can find here BRIAN THIS GUY, where did he go???

My last two posts were snarky. I don't agree with what a random person said in my comments, but I do know that I accidentally offended/ hurt a family member of mine due to the rash nature of my typing in one of those posts and that's what lead me to delete it.I'm famous for not clearly explaining my thoughts... you would think that when I have the option to go back and read I would do a better job at articulating. but I guess that isn't the case. I'm not concerned about random internet trolls and what they think of me but I do care about my family. I'm sorry.

UGH the last little bit has been HARD! Last night I went to use the bathroom before I started driving home. As usual I took my ring off to wash my hands. I do this because the ring is slightly large for me so if my hand gets wet my ring slides right off my finger. Anyway, I was having a bad day and I spaced and just left WITHOUT MY RING! I left work right around 5:50 and by the time I realized at 6:15 I called a co worker who was still at work and it wasn't in the bathroom anymore. I immediately emailed the biggest company distribution list I knew of letting them all know I left it and please help me get it back. NO RESPONSE! I was a MESS. I couldn't stop crying and feeling horrible. Chad was sooo good about it- he was so sweet reassuring me that it was just a ring and that we can get a new one if needed and that it's not a big deal. That it doesn't mean we're not going to get married or that we're not engaged anymore- that it's just a missing ring. But ...

Okay I'm done after this, but this is an amazing piece of art I have as my background on my phone that I wanted to share. It's called: Sometimes the Spirit Touches Us Through Our Weaknesses James Christensen

We just set up our cake tasting/ order build out appointment. I got a sweet Groupon for a custom made 4 tier cake that serves around 150 people so I bought it and now I have an appointment for 90 minutes of cake tasting deliciousness! yay! I already know what I want my cake to look like... like the picture you see right here... but flowers in my colors of course :) And in case you didn't know from the picture (which I expect you don't) those are sugar spun flowers and real leaves and vines. I think it's so beautiful and perfect... I can't wait to order it and get it delivered and then eat it at my wedding! Odds are there will be red velvet under all that frosting with cream cheese butter cream frosting on the outside... so it won't be white but ivory is my guess... Oh I'm so excited! Did I mention they do free delivery and setup? Oh and that their Yelp page only says great things and I've already talk to them on the phone and they sound like the nicest ...

I have been feeling very uncreative lately- I don't know what it is, but as evidenced by my blog title I'm kinda lame lately.  So I've been as good at blogging as I have been sticking to my diet. It's so hard to give up carbs. SO hard! So what I decided to do is not kill myself. I'm going to eat a few of Chad's fries when we go out to dinner. I'm going to get a donut at 10pm when I've had a crappy day and I'm not going to stress over it. 90% of diet is still pretty good when I use to just eat carbs and sugar. In wedding news everything is SLOWLY coming together. I have a reception venue, a florist, a photographer... and according to the knot I only have 116 more things to-do, ugh! (72 have been completed though) I can't wait till I have more done then to-do. Anyway, I have some time, 108 days to be exact... I've kinda found my dress. I have a friend that wants to make a dress so what we're going to do is combine my favorite elemen...

I feel like I'm in a weird limbo. I'm in this middle ground right now. I'm waiting to find out where Chad is going to school so I know if I need to find a new job and move. I'm not really single, but I'm not married. Because I'm engaged no one really seems to want to be my friend, but because I'm engaged I don't really feel like I much fit in at the single's ward anymore. This is a very weird time. I don't really know if I can explain it properly. Just like I'm stuck between two worlds... and that I can't plan my transition properly. In other news wedding planning is frustrating and it takes a lot out of me to keep my thoughts, opinions, sassy remarks and brattiness in check while talking to people about it. My diet is rough. I have sugar cravings like crazy. I lost 3 pounds Monday-Thursday but then Friday for dinner I fell off the wagon, hard and then I stayed off till Monday. It's a hard diet to follow when you're not at...

UGH.  My friend warned me that the first week would be tough. Today has been the worst day of the bad week. All I want are the two things I can't have. Sugar and Carbs. I just want to sit down and eat pasta and bread and candy till I explode. Okay past that I'm too busy at work... for now...

1. This blog might quickly turn very wedding and diet focused. For those of you opposed to that I say boo to you... this blog is about my life and that's what my life is right now. I don't think most of you will mind though because you're my good friends so you're interested in that right? Well be warned... those will start tomorrow and will most likely involve it would only happen to Michelle type stories so that's fun. But if you're not into it, I'll make the title clear so you can skip to all the other random stuff I'll post. 2. I am excited. I can't talk about much of it, but remember how much I say I hate my job? Well that might change, I am in the early steps of doing something about the hate. Yay me. Keep me and future in your thoughts/prayers. I just pray that I'll be happy with my job, that the right opportunities will present themselves and that if it's good for me and my future family (Chad) that it will work out. Please do the s...