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I feel like I'm in a weird limbo. I'm in this middle ground right now. I'm waiting to find out where Chad is going to school so I know if I need to find a new job and move. I'm not really single, but I'm not married.

Because I'm engaged no one really seems to want to be my friend, but because I'm engaged I don't really feel like I much fit in at the single's ward anymore. This is a very weird time. I don't really know if I can explain it properly. Just like I'm stuck between two worlds... and that I can't plan my transition properly.

In other news wedding planning is frustrating and it takes a lot out of me to keep my thoughts, opinions, sassy remarks and brattiness in check while talking to people about it.

My diet is rough. I have sugar cravings like crazy. I lost 3 pounds Monday-Thursday but then Friday for dinner I fell off the wagon, hard and then I stayed off till Monday. It's a hard diet to follow when you're not at home all day and you're busy running around. But I'm back on and I allow myself the littlest treats occasionally (a single chocolate covered mac nut someone brought from Hawaii) so that makes me a lot happier.
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britt said…
i always want to be your friend! And being a brat goes hand in hand with being a bride, so don't get too down about it. It comes with the territory.
April 12, 2011 at 6:15 PM
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