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So Chad is off in the woods, and has been for the past 24 so days. Can I explain just how over it I am? I don't like that I'm making all the final decisions without his input for the wedding. I don't like that he was not here to cuddle me when I was puking everything I ate for 24 hours. I don't like that he's not here to stop me from meddling in other people's lives. I don't like that when I have a nightmare I can't call him and have him talk me back to sleep. I don't like that when I can't sleep he isn't around to talk me to sleep. I don't like not having him with me when I go out to dinner, or a movie, or a friend's house. I don't like that I never hear from him.  I don't like that he's not around to be with me, cuddle me, hug me, laugh with me, talk with me.

UGH
It is a very good thing he comes home this weekend because I'm just so over him being gone.

OKAY WHINING OVER.

In 2 weeks exactly I will be exiting the LA temple married to Chadwick Steven McCombs.... yay!!!

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kayla said…
just think though, it's only 24 days without him in the scope of FOREVER. s minuscule bit of time. but i feel ya, on hating being apart.

buuuuut, i am soooo excited for the impending wedding! i'm sad i won't be there, but i'm sure it (and you) will be beautiful and perfect! and your invitation is adorable and simple. love.
July 22, 2011 at 2:47 PM
Wade and Brianna said…
Michelle-I am sorry you are without him right now. It sucks. I miss ya and I am SO happy for you two. He is great for you and I am so happy you found someone you can cry to, that is willing to be there when you are sick and that loves you unconditionally. YAY!
July 23, 2011 at 2:04 PM
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