Digressive Ramblings

So I've decided to do my week in pictures.... most won't be real because they haven't happened yet- but my goal is to fully document it so that I have real pictures to share :) Monday: So confession... this isn't the LA visitor center that I went to, but it looks a lot like it! It was fun to see the new center and all the interactive elements. I kinda dork out about that stuff now. This is Chad being more interested in ESPN than me while we were at The Counter for dinner, but that's okay because I'm a mess when I eat there so I was able to wipe my face off while he was distracted :) Tuesday: To celebrate Brittani's birthday... I'm thinking about trying something new today... and yes, that does excite me! Wednesday: Pedicures with the girls! and then maybe we're seeing Scott Pilgrim Thursday and on: Thursday evening Chad and I are hitting the road (this stock photo is great because in a very general sense it looks like the two of us) and are he...

that whoever requested this cake is married... because that is just so very awesome. I'm glad they found each other.

masochistic- Noun. gratification gained from pain, deprivation, degradation, etc., inflicted or imposed on oneself, either as a result of one's own actions or the actions of others, esp. the tendency to seek this form of gratification. "The sadistic person is as dependent on the submissive person as the latter is on the former; neither can live without the other. The difference is only that the sadistic person commands, exploits, hurts, humiliates, and that the masochistic person is commanded, exploited, hurt, humiliated. This is a considerable difference in a realistic sense; in a deeper emotional sense, the difference is not so great as that which they both have in common: fusion without integrity." Yeah... The picture is really cool though- it's called Cirque De Masochistic

Dear Michelle, Please stop thinking, analyzing, worrying, stressing and all other negative action verbs about your life. You need to be positive and focus on what's good and enjoy what's happening now. It is okay to live in the moment and appreciate what you have now- things will always work out and it will always be what's best for you. Enjoy what is going great right now and don't worry about the future because 1. it doesn't need to be planned out and follow a schedule 2. you don't know what life holds and 3. worry lines aren't pretty. Love Your logical side

“Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.” -The Wonder Years Note to Self: Watch more The Wonder Years... seriously use to love that show. So, I use to be a lot more hyper... like crazy hyper. Like actually bouncing off the walls and crazy fun. Sometimes I still get that way... but I've mellowed out a lot lately. I use to think that I've lost a bit of myself... the whole selling out and chaining my soul to corporate America (great imagery for me here) killing my youth and fun... but I realized it's more growing up then it is selling out. ~ The trick is growing up without growing old. It's not like I'm not fun... I'm just more steady. F...

These things are making me happy today: Some Guy making fun of Twilight Meteor Showers like Whoa! A Spelling Bee for Cheaters Girls Night! Dinner is planned as well... I'm going to have a good weekend :) Now if only I didn't have to work... I need to refocus myself and work on marrying wealthy again... I wasn't made to work long hours oh and a last minute addition: GENIUS

It was too long to post on facebook so here's all my B's that I miss in an extended status type of way, in no particular order: Best Friend Michele- she is just so great that I love being around her. I feel like she'll NEVER judge/ be disapointed in me... even when she should. She'll always be there for me and I love her to pieces. Best Friend Erica- Which is stupid because she lives like 10 minutes away, but I miss talking to her everyday, hopping into bed with her when something exciting happens, living with her, seeing her.... stupid married life. Best Friend Kay- We email, but face to face or phone hasn't happened in so long that it makes my heart hurt a bit. And she's having a rough time and I hate that! Bed- I woke up at 3:30EST, drove to JFK, hopped on a flight, attempted to sleep for 6 hours and drove to work. Right now nothing sounds better than bed. Brittany Francis- I seriously can't get enough of this girl- she makes me smile and if I w...

But seriously I love this poem (I know I'm not the only person who does): Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds and shall find me unafraid It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shri...