Hasta la vista la clase de Espanol

So I was taking a Spanish class. It was a challenge for me. I've never been very good at foreign languages, but I thought it would be a valuable life skills. It stressed me out... I didn't have time to devote to studying, the teacher taught it as a refresher course instead of a beginning Spanish class and it was Monday and Wednesday nights which means I left work a bit early and then would spend the rest of my night in class.

So as of like 4pm yesterday I had: full time work (away from town 11+ hours a day with commuting), Spanish class, shaky job security, wedding planning, RS activities calling (which might not sound like much but I'm trying to get my committee to help me do more things...), and the possibility that I would need to find a new job and an apartment to live in in a foreign city. Needless to say I was a bit stressed out. I was getting stomachaches (it's called ulcers) and migraines like once a week. That didn't help with the stress level.

Also, did you know that when you're stressed your body produces more Cortisol. In small stress situations it's not a big deal... but when it's extended it can lead to a crappy immune system AND belly fat. See this if you don't believe me. So added to that I was getting fat. In my belly too so I was feeling super gross and fat and didn't have time to work out so there was more stress there.

So basically I was a time bomb ready to explode. And I didn't know what I could do to change it... until I said to myself, "Really? Do you really need Spanish in your life?" I never thought about that. I didn't. So I went online and dropped it. I have had zero regrets. And I can breath a little easier. It's been great for me :)

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